Heartbeat: Our Unexpected Loss

 

My wife and I were going to have another baby. Our hope was for a baby girl--but the most important thing was that he or she would be healthy. Then things took a turn for the worse. My wife started bleeding and in a few days would have a miscarriage. We were both numb and in a state of disbelief. One day earlier my wife had an ultrasound and saw our baby's heartbeat. My mom would later say technology is both a blessing and a curse. In her day, there was no opportunity to see the baby's heartbeat so soon in a pregnancy. As a result, after her (my mom's) miscarriage she was not as emotionally connected. Not knowing what to do I just decided I was going to serve my wife. There definitely was hurt involved with me; but not to the extent that I hurt for my wife. You never realize how much you love someone until you hurt for them. I think this is why Jesus loved us so much. He hurt for us because he knew we couldn't make it into heaven by ourselves. You hurt for people you love and I was hurting for my precious wife.We are talking about naming our child. How could you not when you saw the heartbeat. For all those who argue that a baby isn't a baby at such an early stage, I just have one thing to say.....there was a heartbeat. There was a life and my wife saw it and it made her happy. So what would we name our unborn child. We are still talking about it but I suggested we call him or her, "heartbeat." So as we continue to heal please remember us in your prayers.  But don't feel sad for us. Be grateful to God that he granted us an opportunity to see life. Although the life was short-lived....we know that one day we will be with him or her forever in heaven. In the end, we move forward and thank God for the opportunity to experience the heartbeat